A Case of Ritual Abuse and its Meaning for Society
“The most extraordinary thing about today’s allegations of murders during satanic rituals involving a Melbourne priest is not that they’ve been made, but that the Catholic Church admitted in writing that it accepted they were substantially true.”
So opens an article about my experiences written by journalist, Gary Hughes, which appeared on the News Corp website on the 26th of May 2006. (link provided below) The story was also covered in most of the Murdoch capital city daily newspapers. But it disappeared from sight the next day. There was no follow up in the media apart from an article written by myself and published on the News Corp site three days later on 29th of May (also linked below).
Now, nearly ten years later, we have a Royal Commission into sexual abuse and I and others I know have presented testimony to the Commission about Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) perpetrated by the Catholic Church and other organisations. Yet the Royal Commission is silent regarding SRA. They have not followed up with any of the SRA victims that I am aware of. What the public has been treated to is publicity of a series of individual cases of abuse perpetrated by individual paedophiles. Many of the cases have been public knowledge for years and those that haven’t seen the light of day before this, though tragic for those involved and valuable for them and the public, have not contributed to the society’s understanding of the overall culture of systemic abuse by those in power. In some ways, these cases have been used to distract attention away from the real problem: horrific, organised and systemic abuse perpetrated at the highest levels of society.
The police, too, have come up empty-handed after being given much testimony of Satanic and paedophilic rings. Names have been given but so far not one organised ring has been exposed. This is beyond incompetence. If we have in this country total electronic surveillance and recording of every email, phone call and text to supposedly protect us from terrorists, why isn’t this information used to apprehend organised satanic paedophile rings? Something else is going on here.
I have structured this article into three main parts together with a conclusion –
A Case of Ritual Abuse
The following is presented in a linear, sequential manner which implies a strict chronological order. For the most part, it is chronological but there are a few assumptions by me regarding the order of events. It is never-the-less presented in this order to better convey the meaning of it all for the reader. The events occurred over the period from early 1961, at least, to the end of 1964 – a three year period. The descriptions are deliberately brief with just enough detail to convey the depth of evil to those who might spend some time contemplating the actions and thinking of these priests.
While reading this, bear in mind that the Catholic Church has accepted this as true.
It was 1961 and I had just turned 11 years old and was attending school at the Christian Brothers’ College in East St. Kilda, Melbourne. I was told to leave the classroom one day and go to the brother’s quarters to see Fr. Thomas O’Keefe for the purposes of sex education. O’Keefe was the school chaplain and was also the assistant parish priest at Sandringham where I was an altar boy.
It was a large dim room. There were tall windows at the end and I could see trees outside bathed in bright summer light. O’Keefe sat next to me and began to fondle me. I focussed on the trees through the window and lost awareness of everything else. I had dissociated. It was something I had learned to do to cope with the violent nature of my home life. This fact was not lost on O’Keefe.
Thereafter, he would regularly sexually abuse me and soon introduced me into the Satanic cult he was part of. The particular coven that O’Keefe belonged to was led by another priest, Kevin O’Donnell, best known for his extensive paedophilia. Looking back, it is clear that I was to be trained to take up a leadership role in that cult. Satanic cults within the Catholic Church involving priests are, by their nature, not generational. Each generation had to be recruited. Though, in some cases, there is some extended family involved, as is the case with another of my abusers.
At 11 years old, I was beyond the usual age to start the indoctrination and programming but I could already dissociate and I was very intelligent and rather outgoing and so was, no doubt, an attractive proposition to them. Dissociation is important to create alter personalities that can be trained to do certain tasks and to contain the memories and programming separate from the rest of the personality. This is easier done the younger the victim is. I could already do that so I was ready to begin the training. (There is a link to an online book on dissociation in the notes at the foot of this article).
First, I was humiliated and degraded much like happens in army boot-camp only far more obscene. Then I was terrorised using dogs and guns. I was shot at close range with blank ammunition. On the one hand I was told I was below worthless and could do nothing without the cult and on the other hand I was told I was so powerful bullets couldn’t hurt me. The disorientation and terror was used to break down my understanding of the world and my place in it. This was to leave me mentally adrift ready for the next stage.
Next came the electro-shock treatment. I was strapped in a heavy chair and given two batons to hold through which the shocks were administered. A bright, dazzling light was placed in front of me. I was subjected to a high pitched noise in my right ear and O’Donnell would yell nonsensical things in my left ear; things like, “God is evil, Satan is good” and “Good is evil and evil is good”.
Interspersed with these insane back-to-front statements were electro-shocks. I was told that I could not feel them and if I called out, I was further punished. (Some years ago I read descriptions of electro shock treatment employed by the CIA in their MK-Ultra program that was exactly the same as I experienced. There was obviously some connection with the Roman Catholic Church and the CIA).
It was all designed to overcome my trust in my own senses and to accept what these priests said as reality. Controlling what people think of as reality is real power. Hence, the emphasis on propaganda in our society: from the pulpit, to the classroom, to the television to the podium. When seen together, it is everywhere.
The most direct demonstration of power over others is the stealing of their lives. There were four murders carried out by Kevin O’Donnell that I witnessed and that I was involved in various ways. Readers who think they may be triggered by the descriptions may be advised to skip down nine paragraphs and resume reading at the paragraph starting with “I will leave the description there”.
It is clear to me that I was being trained to fulfil a similar position to O’Donnell who did the killing. The first was a young man who was clearly drugged though he was still distressed so presumably was aware of his fate. He was beheaded with an axe. After decapitating the man, O’Donnell rushed in front of the man’s severed neck to catch the stream of gushing blood with his mouth. He then came over to me and, dragging me by the hair, pushed my face into the severed neck. I can still feel the hard bony vertebra contrasting with the squishy flesh of the neck against my cheek. I was being ‘blooded’.
The man’s head was put on a tray and was passed around the group for them to “Kiss John goodbye”. I took it as a mocking salute to the beheading of John the Baptist.
On another occasion, a teenage girl whom I knew, was drugged sufficiently well to show no awareness of her position or fate. She was naked and lying face up on an altar. O’Donnell had his hand over mine and in my hand was a knife. The knife was pressed against the young girl’s throat and O’Donnell pressed down on my hand and quickly drew it backwards to slash her throat, killing her in the process. Her breasts were cut off and O’Donnell and O’Keefe proceeded to eat one each. Their faces were pictures of delight.
An infant girl was also killed and I was blamed for her death. I was told by O’Donnell to choose between a young boy, maybe 6 to 8 years old, and the infant girl as to who would die. If I didn’t choose, both would be killed. I had already seen O’Donnell kill and had no doubt he would kill both if I did not choose. The boy was looking at me with terror in his eyes and so I chose the infant. Instantly, it seemed, O’Donnell cut the baby’s throat. He placed his fingers into the wound and then pushed his blood soaked fingers into my mouth saying, “You killed her”.
The baby’s body was then cut up as you would joint a chicken. A leg was pushed into my face and I was told to eat it. I refused. The world was spinning around. O’Donnell, wild with rage, brandished his knife in my face and threatened to kill me if I didn’t eat but I was happy to die. I didn’t move or say anything. I had let go of any desire to live.
Then, O’Keefe intervened and somehow persuaded O’Donnell to not kill me. I presume it was because others knew I was with O’Keefe and my disappearance would lead directly to him. I have often thought that my ambivalence towards living goes back to that experience and that decision of mine. I was later told that the infant girl was mine and her mother was a woman in the cult named Marama. I believed both assertions at the time but have doubts about them both now.
The last murder had the most profound effect upon me. I’m sure it was designed to teach me that love kills; that love leads to death. This was Marama. She was a beautiful woman and probably in her early thirties. Her job had been to show kindness towards me and then betray me and this happened repeatedly. ‘Love is not to be trusted’ was the lesson.
As planned, I fell in love with her. It was not surprising because, in all my fourteen years, it seemed to me that no one had touched me except to hurt me. Violence had followed me through my life from my family to my school to the cult. What was unplanned by the cult was that Marama developed a love for me. Once O’Donnell knew this, Marama was of no further use to the cult and was a threat to their plans for me.
Marama was naked, spread-eagled and chained down on an altar. O’Donnell was in my face yelling at me, “Do you love her?” I was silent. He repeated it many times. Of course, I did love her but I did not know which way would be best to answer as I was fearful for Marama. Finally, I said, “Yes”. O’Donnell then said, “Then, she has to die” and brought down a hatchet onto Marama’s chest.
I will leave the description there. Some veterans of ritual abuse will know what followed. For others, what happened is beyond most peoples imaginations and it would be a burden, to say the least, having those images in your mind. Suffice it to say that I was left in no doubt that my love for Marama was the cause of her death; that Love kills. The reality is the opposite but I was not in a position to know that then.
What I did know was that the reality of Marama’s love and my love for her made it impossible for me to accept anything the cult was trying to teach me. I escaped the cult and, by hypervigilance and the grace of God, managed to stay out of their clutches thereafter.
Convicted pedophile and serial killer, Father Kevin O’Donnell
The Meaning for Society
This gives us an entry point into the madness of satanic or evil thinking. When I look back over the three years I was being abused and indoctrinated by the cult, one thing stands out for me. They tried at every opportunity to kill any attachment to love. It was and is essential to kill love to spread evil. Love is the enemy to them because Love is the truth and Love gives life.
Evil reverses the truth and tell lies at every opportunity. Being the reverse of truth means that there can be no sound logic to it, either. Logic, properly employed, is highly effective at establishing truth and uncovering lies and deceit. So the ability to think logically must be inhibited if not killed also.
Thinking logically starts by observing reality and asking questions of yourself and others. It is no accident that formal logic is rarely taught in schools these days. Children who ask the obvious (to them) questions are humoured for a while and if they persist with their questions they are ridiculed and finally humiliated. They provide an abject lesson for the rest of the students; keep your head down, your mouth shut and do what you are told. This is necessary for any ‘authority’ to impose its will on others. Authority needs your acceptance to be effective, to have power.
At base, all power relies on breaking our allegiances to each other and attaching them to those that would rule us. What links us together is compassion and empathy so this must be inhibited through ‘divide and conquer’ tactics. For this to be effective, logic and reason must be inhibited also. This is because to convince us to act collectively against our own best interests, ‘the powers that be’ have to lie to us. Lies are only effective while they are not seen for what they are. Reason exposes lies because they are not consistent; there are always contradictions underneath them and logic explores contradictions.
To gain power over us, our ‘authorities’ need to emulate to varying degrees what the cult did; kill or at least inhibit love and reason. The Catholic Church has a long history of doing just that. So the satanic cult within the Catholic Church is not an aberration within the church but the essence at the centre of it.
Likewise, satanic cults are the distillation and concentration of the exploitative power thinking that is the foundation of all institutions and hierarchies in our current day society including governments and bodies that they appoint such as Royal Commissions. Child sexual abuse is but a symptom of this societal exploitation by those who would rule us. Who are these people? How are they organised and how do they rule?
The History of “The System”
To illustrate, it is often easier to see the truth by looking at history because we are not so emotionally attached to it. Those who have more than a passing knowledge of the Gospels will know that ordinary Jews of the day were managed very tightly by three groups. These groups were the only people Jesus poured out his scorn upon. They were the Pharisees, the priests of the day: the scribes, the lawyers of the day; and the moneychangers who were the equivalent of our bankers today.
These three groups worked together to micro-manage and mercilessly exploit their fellow Jews. They had to pay tribute (taxes) to the Romans and in return were left to control and exploit their own population as they saw fit. These people in charge were psychopaths. You cannot run a system like this unless you have no concept of justice or compassion.
When the Emperor Constantine formed the Roman Catholic Church (RCC) in 326AD with himself as its head (Pontiff Maximus), he incorporated the cult of Mithraism into it. It was a secret society that counted amongst its members high military figures, bureaucrats and business leaders. According to some historians, they indulged in animal blood sacrifices much like the Pharisees did. They also suddenly disappeared from historical records once the RCC came into being. They went underground, literally.
Many churches in Rome and throughout the old Roman Empire have crypts underneath them replete with Mithraic symbols. A common explanation is that the church built their temples on top of the Mythraic crypts as an expression of dominance and usurpation. But if you are going to do that, you demolish the existing structures to use the masonry to build your own temple. You do not preserve the previous structures underneath them, as the church builders did, unless you want to hide and incorporate them. There was now a “church within the church”.
Constantine reintroduced a pharisaic-like priestcraft when he formed the Roman Catholic Church. They came over from the Mythraic cult. The title “Father” came from there, as well, along with all the “bells and smells”. Any organisation that makes a big deal out of dressing-up and using pomp and ceremony is trying to convince the punters that they have some special authority over them; an authority that does not exist in actuality.
The emphasis is on the outward form because there is no inner substance. If you have ever wondered why the legal profession also ‘plays dress-ups’ with their wigs and frocks, that’s the reason. There is no substance under the form. An understanding of Natural Law, the discernment of the laws that govern the nature of the world and mankind will make this non-existence of one man’s authority over another very plain.
As adults, we all have free will. This simple but profound fact says that we are in charge of our decisions. If we are in charge of decisions, we are in charge of ourselves and then it follows that no one else is in charge of us and our decisions. It also follows that we are not in charge of others’ decisions or their lives. That is the way God designed us or the way Nature has evolved us; take your pick. We as a species have spent 99% of our time on earth in co-operative, non-coercive, non-hierarchical, self-organising tribal societies.
If God designed us, as the Catholic Church maintains, then it makes no sense at all for them to say that God has given the Church leaders authority over us; that they know what’s best for us. In effect, the Church is saying is that God made us as we are with two legs, two arms and free will but doesn’t want us to use our free will and wants the people in funny hats to use their free will for us. That is a contradiction and there are no contradictions in nature. So one of the propositions, at least, must be wrong. The obviously wrong proposition is that God gave men in pointy hats authority over us. What is it with all these funny hats, anyway? Hats on, hats off!
If we take the tack that our natures (which includes free will) have evolved over perhaps a million years, then it follows that we are perfectly honed through evolution to survive and thrive. In other words, we need individual free will to survive as an individual and as a species. If that free will and our self authority is inhibited or taken away from us, it follows that our survival will be compromised. And, indeed, it has been. All the abuse in our society results from people taking authority over others that those people do not have.
They are going against Natural Law and, in particular, the design of the human mind. Gravity is part of Natural Law, too. It is part of the design of this world. If you were to jump off the roof of your house, you are exercising your free will. But you have no free will as to whether you float off in the air or fall straight to the ground at an accelerating rate. We don’t have power over the consequences of our choices once they have been made.
Natural Law can be said to be the Law of Consequences. And there are inevitable consequences to child abuse. The design of our consciousness, our psychology, has been transgressed and Natural Law says there will be harmful effects. The harmful consequences are there to tell everyone paying attention not to do it again – this is the wrong road.
But people in power want to keeping doing it again and much else that is harmful. So to guard against the knowledge and spread of Natural Law and to shore up its own power, the Church developed Canon Law as a substitute law. Instead of learning God’s law that is very evident in the design of the world around us including our own psychology, we are now told to learn it from a book written by men. Man’s Law in place of God’s Law. What could possibly go wrong?
Canon Law spawned Maritime Law (sometimes called Law of the Sea or Mercantile Law) which, in turn spawned modern Commercial Law and our whole legal system. The other branch of our law, the Criminal Code, which is supposed to be based on Common Law which, in turn, is supposed to be based on Natural Law (but isn’t) is no better because Criminal Law is based on the concept of punishment (Canon Law again) and not on Restitution which is demanded by Natural Law.
Restitution undoes some of the initial harm and puts a stop to the ongoing harm to the individual and society. Punishment is just more violence and does not improve the situation for the victim. It just creates more violence and violence begets more violence making the situation for society worse. This suits some people. Of course, these legal codes spawned a rash of lawyers, our modern day Scribes.
So we have a legal system that proposes to combat violence with more violence and just makes matters worse. Has all the money spent on lawyers and the legal system seriously inhibited crime? No, it clearly doesn’t work as advertised. Again, we have Man’s Law (punishment and violence) substituted for God’s Law or Nature’s Law (restitution). And what hasn’t gone wrong? We are still in the same bind, the same system and thinking that afflicted the Jews of Biblical times.
Banking (our latter day Money-changers) depends on the legal system to function as does government which is owned by various interest groups. Chief amongst the interest groups are the same three aforementioned pillars of the system of biblical times – the priests, the lawyers and the bankers. All three branches insist on having institutional authority over the population. This is the fundamental false concept that all subsequent abuse and exploitation is built on.
The priests condition children’s minds to accept institutional authority over them and threaten eternal damnation as punishment for a myriad of victimless crimes. Likewise, the lawyers condition adults to further accept authority over them and to accept punishment for even more victimless crimes. If there is no identifiable victim, there cannot be a crime. The bankers condition people to accept debt and financial obligation; financial slavery, in other words.
Not one in a thousand people understand the true nature of money and banking. There is not space here to elaborate but suffice it to say, it is a scam on the same level as the Church and the Legal Society perpetrate on the public. Under the corporate/banking order come the media and entertainment industries ro keep us amused and pliable. The system is based on lies and perpetuated by lies. We are living in a kind of Disneyland where everything looks real but is, in fact, fake.
But how to keep this system of lies and exploitation functioning generation after generation? Through the use secret societies in the same manner that the Roman Emperors used the cult of Mithraism. Secret societies are conspiracies against the public. Members in power (often psychopaths) sponsor other members into positions of power and privilege whom, in turn, are beholden to their sponsors and thus controllable.
To ensure no escape from this privileged bondage, illegal and immoral activities are encouraged which further compromise the individual and ensure compliance against the threat of exposure and public approbation. The most effective inducements are paedophilia and finally ritual killings. This is the point of no return. Thus the most powerful and the most evil people in our society are inevitably the same people and they have complete control over our society when and where it counts.
So it is little wonder that we have accusations of paedophile rings involved in ritual killings perpetrated by church, legal, business, media/entertainment and political figures. Given the hierarchical nature of our society, the genesis of the church and legal institutions and the resulting promotion of psychopaths within these power structures, it could not be otherwise. In fact, the challenge should be, “How could it not be this way?”
“Power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely” – Lord Acton.
This saying and its wisdom are well known. No one contests its truth yet we build and obey our institutions as if it was not true. Now that is conditioning!
The System in Action?
Perhaps an illustration of the interlocking of these three pillars is in order. In 1996 the Catholic Church instituted the so-called “Melbourne Response” as damage control in the face of a growing number of public accusations of sexual abuse by priests. One arm of it was called the Compensation Panel headed by a QC. He was followed in that position by three more QC’s. Now you may be wondering why QC’s, whom no one could accuse of being short of a dollar or two, would want to moonlight on the Church’s tacky ‘damage control’ panel.
The fourth QC is still in the position but the three previous incumbents all had to resign their positions to take up judgeships. Once can happens, two is a coincidence, three is a pattern. The QC’s from the legal system joined the Compensation Panel by being appointed by the religious system. They all leave this tacky show by being appointed to the Bench by the government system, specifically, by the Attorneys General (more lawyers). That’s quite a step upwards. Could it be that there is a direct connection between the religious system and the government system to close this linear progression into a recurring loop?
How This Relates Back to the Royal Commission
The Child Abuse Royal Commission
Let us now look at the current Royal Commission Into Institutional Responses to Child Sexual Abuse against the view of societal power that has just been elaborated on. The Royal Commission is, of course, an extension of the legal system; one of the three pillars of the system of control and exploitation.
Many people uttered a sigh of relief when Julia Gillard announced the Royal Commission into sexual abuse. If Julia Gillard and Nicola Roxon had not opted to establish this Royal Commission when they did, it would have had to have been formed before too long, in any case. It was becoming increasingly obvious to a growing number of people that the sexual abuse perpetrated by the Catholic Church, in particular, was being covered up and facilitated by decades of police, legal and government protection.
The three pillared system of exploitation was coming to be seen for what it was. Something had to be done because this elaborate system of abuse, power and privilege can only function so long as the general public has no clue as to what is really going on. Once authorities and our governing institutions are seen for what they are, belief in authority, upon which all their exploitation is dependent, evapourates and along with it all the power the predatory authority figures hold. That is a day of reckoning that is truly fearsome for them. These people are psychopaths and there are no bigger cowards than them. They know better than anyone that their power is ultimately just a product of perception.
So, if there is going to be a Royal Commission, then it is imperative for the perps to control it and the public perception and to keep hidden the organised paedophilia and the ritual killings that are the glue that holds their predatory system together. Joh Bjelke Petersen, the former Premier of Queensland, once famously said, “You do not hold a Royal Commission unless you already know what the answer will be”. Old Joh was in a position to know what he was talking about.
To date, the public has not heard a peep from the Commission about organised paedophilia nor about Satanic Ritual Abuse even though many people, including myself and others I know of personally, have given evidence of these practices to the Royal Commissioners. This information has been given to the police as well. The answer from the police and the Commission has been a deafening silence. Given the above information, their silence makes perfect sense.
Some Conclusions and Suggestions
This has been a longish article and we have covered a lot of ground. Thank you for reading this far. I have tried to give you a glimpse into the truth of Ritual Abuse through my experiences and give you some insight into the nature and character of the people who perpetrate it. But it is equally and perhaps more important to understand the people who protect this system of extreme abuse with their system of institutions. They are most often perps, too, and neither they nor their institutions are what they appear to be. In fact, quite the opposite. But then, that is what evil does, reverse truth and all that is good. It is this psychopathic, evil thinking that is our real enemy. This is what drives the system that I have outlined which spawns and drives the individuals that we come up against and are occasionally seen in the news. The individuals are just the tip of this cold, heartless iceberg.
We need to bear in mind all the time that power corrupts. To varying degrees it brings about delusion. The deluded start thinking they are superior and are thus entitled to rule over others. It never ends well. We should start with a distrust of all authority figures (especially where children are involved) until they prove themselves individually to be trustworthy. We still have to bear in mind, though, that this trustworthy and sensible functionary will be operating within a dysfunctional organisation.
A call to action starting with ourselves
We are designed to live in voluntary, co-operative and self organising societies. If we are going to change our current predatory and coercive society for the good and for the next generation, we have to withdraw our support for the current power institutions wherever possible and go around them to reach the public directly and then encourage them to do the same.
Religious, legal, corporate and government institutions like to treat us as children and have educated us to be dependent on them as children are. A shift in thinking is required if we are to take back our societies from the psychopaths and their system. It is hard to change your thinking with the television going and spouting nonsense programming that reinforces the dependency. Removing it will give you the mental space you need. A knowledge of psychopathy would be very helpful.
As a society, we have been ‘dumbed down’ in regard to our intellectual and emotional powers. If you do not have a working knowledge of formal and informal logic, I can thoroughly recommend you study it. It’s straight forward, even logical! Learn the difference between deductive and inductive logic. If you can gain a working knowledge of deductive logic, you’ll have the drop on any one who would try to con you. You’ll spot the lies coming a mile off. If you can gain a working knowledge of inductive logic, you’ll be able to teach yourself anything that interests you.
If you develop your logical powers only, though, you are likely to become an exploiter yourself. So it is critical to develop your empathy and capacity for compassion as well. Compassion for others is how we survived a million years through watching each others backs. We need this more than ever today. Start by really listening to people. Having empathy for others enriches your life because you are in tune with Nature’s design for us. You become more attuned to kind people and more sensitive to people who are exploitative. You make better choices.
Be truthful with yourself. We live in this Disney World of lies and are exploited daily by it. To combat this make-believe world, we need to tell the truth starting with what we tell ourselves. Be rigorous with it. When we become acutely aware of the half-truths, ambiguities and prevarications we tell ourselves, we hear them instantly when others utter them. This becomes another level of self defence.
A final word of warning
Self organised groups will become targets for infiltration especially if they are orgainsed to combat paedophilia. The question should not be, “will an infiltrator turn up to ‘help’?” – they will. The question then is, “which ones are they”. Be especially watchful for lawyers, ex-police and media reporters/producers who turn up out of the blue.
Apropos to this, I would like to emphasise what Fiona Barnett recently advised –
“The Bible says: ‘Ye shall know them by their fruits.’ This means that a person’s underlying intention is not necessarily indicated by the words that initially come from their mouths – but by the ultimate impact of their actions over time.”
And finally, to repeat myself, watch out for people who insist on titles and like to dress up in long frocks, gowns, pointy red shoes, wigs and funny hats. You are looking at delusion, right there!
It is only your conditioning that is stopping you from seeing the ridiculousness of it. The Truth is in front of our physical eyes, as always. We just need our mind’s eye to see it for what it is.
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